I just can't let this go...
Back in mid-October I blogged about losing a friend. Or finding out I didn’t have as good of one as I thought to begin with.This has really been plaguing me. Every time I read her blog and heard about all these fun things she was doing and all her free time, it ripped my heart out. I felt like I’d been thrown to the curb. So don’t read her damn blog, right?
I know, I know, but this is my best friend we’re talking about here. I don’t get it. Maybe I’m being punished for some slight that I didn’t realize I’d made? I recall many many moons ago she stopped talking to me and it took years for me to find out it was because I spent too much time with my new boyfriend and neglected her. I don’t know. I certainly don’t want to start pointing fingers and bashing anyone.
I’m just so g-d hurt. I love her. And I miss her. And I just don’t understand why she doesn’t want me to be a part of her life.
I've tried. I've e-mailed. I've called. I've made invitations. I've tried to become part of her usual 'group'. Nothing works.
Now I'm just sad.
posted by Boo @ 11:06 AM
5 Comments:
((((( HUGS )))))
That sucks.
I can't be sure if you are looking for a solution, or just a stream to vent?Does your friend even reconize your efforts, is there issues from the past that may be bothering her about you?
anon-I think I'm just venting, maybe looking for some understanding from others... I believe my efforts are recognized, but that they're low on the priority list - so low that they get forgotten - which is why I'm upset, I thought I was more important than that.
We've had problems in the past, but nothing we haven't now worked through/put behind us. We're not kids anymore. She just doesn't seem willing anymore to make time for me, or share what's happening in her life.
thanks for the hugs Nan... they're most welcome.
been there done that. sorry for your loss.
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